Linus_Jr's Production

2011-10-27T12:39:00.000-07:00

Just found that yesterday was "Hari Blogger Nasional" in Indonesia,

So I just wanna say

Selamat Hari Blogger Nasional, Everyone !!

Keep Bloggin', Keep Expressin',

And be proud of yourself.

those who think blogging is boring is just an ordinary people.

I don't mean this only to Indonesians,

but to all of you who read my posts !!

Because I believe you are one of us,

And we are the extra ordinaries :)

Blog hug anyone?

Fantasy

2011-10-25T07:14:00.000-07:00

God Almighty,

All of that I've seen were only animal's solidarity,

And full of human's cruelty,

A man ran over a two-years old kid so badly,

And a bunch of people passing through her body so normally,

With no any feeling of guilty.

Where is our sympathy,

To the innocent two-years old kid that need it so badly?

Whatever her condition will be,

At least we must show some solidarity.

If a dog still wants to help its dead friend from being ran over again, Why can't we?

Where is the so-called 'Humanity'?

Where all the people help each other with sincerity?

But what I've seen was only brutality !

God Almighty,

Please create a world of fantasy,

Where I can only enjoy the beauty of a scenery,

Where I can only live this life happily,

And most importantly,

Where I can run far far away from this reality !

Wedding !

2011-09-25T05:38:00.000-07:00

So last week, I've spent my precious 3 days in Jambi, my lovely hometown. It's not for holiday purpose, but for my cousin's marriage purpose. I was one of the committees there in charge of serving the guests. I must say that was the event of the year, because to be honest I've never been able to spend a quality time with my big big family for a long time, and don't you feel happy when your cousin get married? I sang a song and danced too in the wedding party, embarrassing but good experience ! I don't know when will I meet up my big family again after this, maybe the next wedding party which is still 2 or 3 years away if that really happens :( but hey let's not be sad, and be happy instead. After all, last week was epic, fun, exciting, and joyful ! I don't want to bullshit too much here, so let's pictures speak :D

These are some pics of the wedding party :

Of course, There's a lot more pictures on facebook :D

Positive Attitude

2011-09-12T05:59:00.000-07:00

Today is the start of week 8 for most Monash Students, or week 7 for IT students.Time is really ticking this fast and I'm finishing up my first semester in a few weeks time. To be honest, I wasn't mentally prepared for the University just yet because I know it will take up most of my leisure time. But time couldn't move backward or stop either, so prepared or not, I have to spend another 3 years on University.

After a few weeks of University, I've been thinking, "How the hell am I gonna pass all these subjects?!" I've completely lost in lectures and tutorials, I didn't even know what am I doing in this University anymore, I really just want another 3 years of high school back ! But after a lot of thinking, I thought all these things differently. Instead of thinking like before,now I think, " How the hell am I gonna fail all these subjects?!" and really it helps me a lot to just twist the question a bit. It gave me the confidence and motivation that I need.

So yeah, why not trying to be positive this time? I've been using a negative approach since my high school and I didn't really know why the hell it gave me good marks, but I know one day this kind of approach can cost me a lot. To think of failing the subjects is just wasting a full load of time, and it doesn't help me either. So why not be positive, where all the impossible become possible, where all the invulnerable become vulnerable. Even adidas keep saying that nothing is impossible! And know I'm just gonna say, "Fuck off fear, Fuck off negative thinking!" Just held your head up even if it's the worst day of your life because believe me, being down doesn't really help, but moving on does ! There's a very old song which really cheers you up in your bad day, The Title is "明天會更好" and it simply mean "Tomorrow will be better" :)

2011-08-27T01:51:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I just finished watching 'Three Kingdoms'

It was one hell of a TV series, 95 episodes in 24 discs !

I must say that is the most interesting history I've ever watched and learned.

Many lessons can be taken from the series to apply in the real world.

But I won't bother to mention it in this post,

I'll leave it to you guys to watch the series itself :)

Anyway, back to daily activity,

I just received my result for my first ever assignment 1,

and it turned out that I got a good mark although it's quite an easy task actually,

I hope that it's a sign for me to pass the semester !

I never ever expect that Monash gonna be this hard,

It really made me worried to the max,

I can't bear the embarrassment of failing the first semester !

So wish me luck guys, all the luck you can wish for :)

5 things I wish I could do !

2011-08-13T13:46:00.000-07:00

1. RIDE A BIKE

2. Hold my breath for a long time when I dive under water

3. Not feeling shy in front of people

4. Pet a dog/pigeon/fish

5. Be a footballer

Basically those are all the five things I've been wishing to be able to do,

But I don't know, It's just impossible for me to do it

I know all of it are embarrassing and unrealistic,

But don't you think it's great to be able to do what you want to do ?!?

Maybe I just wasn't meant to be able to do it.

That's all I wanna share for ya !

I wish ...

2011-08-11T01:44:00.000-07:00

I wish you were here when I feel down,

I wish you were here when I'm in difficulty,

Because I know you're the best solution I ever have.

It seems that when I'm with you,

I can come up with many ideas,

I can feel better,

I can do everything I want,

But it's all nothing more than a fantasy now.

Although we still can meet each other,

It feels like we never know each other,

just like a complete stranger.

If only you know how my heart feels when I meet you,

I can barely move a step, I can barely speak a word.

I know I have made a greatest mistake in my life,

I know I wasn't good enough for you,

because I can't tell you what I feel,

because I always give you lies and excuses,

But I wish you give me another chance,

to prove that I'm a more mature man,

to prove that I'm a better man,

to prove that you also make a mistake in your life by doing this,

My life is dark without you,

My life is empty without you,

Please don't make my life miserable,

wishing that I could turn back times to prove it,

wishing that I could turn back times to avoid those mistakes,

If we really end up like this then,

Let me say this wish to you :

"I wish we never meet each other in this life"

2011-06-24T09:53:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the happiest day of my life.

I could finally see my result and it was satisfying me !

Seriously all the result improved from the first semester.

This may be a miracle for me since I thought that I'm a little less committed to study,

Well I guess miracle does exist in this world :)

Anyway, I decided to went to pyramid for watch a movie and have a dinner for a little celebration.

That really made my day although I had to go alone !

However, this is only a foundation year.

The bigger challenge awaits me on July !

Yes, It's Monash University :)

2011-05-17T12:42:00.001-07:00

It's been a long time since the last time I blogged !

It feels really good to be back :)

anyway, today is the last day of school !

I have a mix feelings about it,

Somehow I'm happy that it's going to end but sad that this is the end of my entire high school.

It's weird, I know !

Many people said high school is the best moment on your life.

Well you know what, I guess that's right b'coz I'm having the best moment of my life right now.

What more can I say,

The schools, The Friends, The Teachers, The Moments, The Memories,

Are simply best of the best.

Actually words aren't enough to describe my high school life !

It's been one hell of a ride I tell you :)

By the way, final examination is coming near already.

So let this be the last thing that decide my life in high school.

So I hope, I wish, I pray for the best possible thing that can happen !

Last but not least, I've watched Tron : Legacy

It's probably one of the best Disney Movies !

Special credit to Olivia Wilde for being hot and beautiful,

Definitely a plus point for the movie despite all the glow effects =p

She has now become one of my favorite actresses :)

And to close today's post, I wanna share a quote :

Wish me luck for the final examination guys :)

Crazy Weekend !

2011-05-08T10:13:00.000-07:00

Friday :

Today marked the end of my last test in MUFY.

It's a little sad to hear though, since the end of high school is coming near !

Spend a little while at my condo before heading to Pyramid to watch Fast Five.

And yea, the main event was the Fast Five itself :)

Probably one of the best movie that I've ever watched in my entire life !

Accompany my friend to had dinner @ Manhattan Fish Market,

Play billiard @ Asia Cafe and Card Games @ Frans' room !

That's pretty much all of the activities on friday for this weekend !

Saturday :

Wake up really late and had a late lunch w/ friend @ LV B2 Cafe,

Right after that, we went to swim but ended up playing ball and chill together in the pool.

Play billiar again this time @ Club 9 with Billie before going to Pyramid to had dinner @ McDonalds,

The main event for today is the MOS w/ a big group,

got really drunk and couldn't remember anything inside there !

Unfortunately, an unexpected thing happened but I really don't want to talk about it.

and yea, that's the end for Saturday.

Sunday :

I was hung over and couldn't do much.

Had some bad feelings after drinking so much alcohol

Spent most of my time sleeping and sleeping :P

Just a plain day and most boring day I've ever had !

I must confess that I never ever like Sunday in Malaysia.

and I think I will feel that way forever if I'm at this country.

May !

2011-05-02T09:27:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone,

I know I should post this on May 1st but since I'm too busy I only can post it today.

So yea, May has started and I'm getting all nervous here !

Basically for the rest of the month it's all about the test, trial exam and the real one !

I have two test left, probably 4 trial exams and 4 final exams,

All in a month !!!!

I think I'll go crazy by the time I finish these stupid assessments !

Anyway, It's the last month of my foundation too.

So I don't know what should I feel right now.

Just wish me all the luck I can have for this month okay :)

By the way, I've watched 6 movies last week,

4 from cinemas and 2 from my laptop.

And I think this is the most that I've ever watched in a week time !

Let me show you what I've watched last week :

Thor

Hop

Chinese Ghost Story

Altitude

College

The Lost Bladesman

Looking forward to watch fast and furious 5 this week :)

2011-04-27T08:20:00.000-07:00

Now I know why Titanic sinks when Rose and Jack fall in love to each other!

It's because they're not meant to be.

Now I know why Juliet only wake up right after Romeo drank the poison !

It's because they're not meant to be.

Now I know why my rose will end up in your trash can !

It's because we're not meant to be.

Because no matter how many times I date you,

Because no matter how many times I make you happy,

Because no matter how many times I let you sleep on my lap,

I would never win your heart, wouldn't I?

So should I even fight for it if I know that this love is not something worth fighting for?

All this while, I've been wasting my time thinking that I will win your heart !

All this while, I've been wasting my time thinking that I will be the one !

But to only realize that your heart was never opened to me.

At least you should know that I put a lot of effort into this.

At least you should know that I am serious about this.

I will not ask for more,

I just hope you consider all this effort and feeling as a proof.

that even when I know it's not something worth fighting for,

I still fight for it, hoping that maybe, just maybe miracle does happen !

And the reason is one !

It's you, and always be you, my dear one :)

Even if we are really never meant to be together.

2011-04-25T09:04:00.000-07:00

It has been over a week since my last post.

I really don't know what to post anymore,

It seems that there are lesser and lesser amount of bloggers everyday.

If only blog is as popular as facebook, it would be so much fun to write about stuff !

Anyway, Let's jump to my point of writing this post.

I've been thinking lately,

What's my life gonna be without all my close friends ?

It's been haunting me everytime !

the thought of parting away from my close friends are the worst I can think of.

It's really hard to move on from that situation and find their replacement.

The feeling will not be the same anymore, Am I right?

Now that the time passes so quickly,

I have to think of spending some quality time together with them,

But the more time I spent with them,

will make me more difficult to say goodbye to them.

Oh God, please can You just stop the time so that there will be no goodbye?

I'm begging you right now !

I really really don't want to say goodbye,

But I can't run away from the fact that my close friends will leave sooner or later,

And may never coming back !!

Redang Island Trip

2011-04-17T06:14:00.001-07:00

I just went back from a really awesome trip with my friends.

I was with Billie, my bro, Frans, Ervandi, and Jesselyn.

We took 3 days and 2 night to Redang Island this time !

It was quite a long journey with Ervandi's Car.

We took about 7 hours just to arrive at Kuala Terengganu and 1 hours boat to Redang Island.

Let's make it simple.

These three days we've been eating buffet for breakfast, lunch, and dinner !

I don't know how many weight did I get from that O.O

And the most fun thing was that we snorkeling everyday everytime :)

It was a really good thing to experience !

At night we were walking around the beach with a beautiful moonlight and beach view,

and not to mention the melody of the wave also.

Anyway, It was a short one but worth it :)

Well, I only snap 3 photos from the trip,

It's because I don't really interested in taking photo.

But it's all original without being photoshopped.

The Beach

The Moonlight

Heart-shaped Spilled Water

2011-04-11T22:12:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I've finally applied for my next university.

I've been thinking and thinking,

Which university should I enroll in?

Well, this may be easy for me to pick,

but trust me this is a lot more complicated than it seems.

I don't even know what subject I really want to focus on,

To be honest, I still really can't find my real interest of study.

A lot of thought has been going through my head.

Will I fail if I take this subject?

Will I fail if I apply this university?

Will I success when I graduate from this university?

These kind of questions have been haunting me long long time ago.

Maybe it's time to put it to an end.

Because I'm here have applied to Monash University Sunway Campus.

And I also decided to be major in computer science.

So there will be no more coming back !

It's time to get serious, really really serious.

I don't know if this is a good choice after all,

but life is all about choices, Am I right?

So let's start with my new year resolution.

Which is to get the best out of MUFY !

2011-04-05T09:00:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I do believe that Heaven doesn't exist up there.

But it's inside here, deep in my heart !

If you were here next to my side and spend some of your time with me,

I believe you'll open the door to Heaven.

Because I know that when I'm with you I feel so Alive :)

because

"I don't want to be the reason you would die for, but I want to be the reason you would live for"

2011-03-28T21:43:00.000-07:00

Weekend is over now !

Gotta go back to reality where assignment and test awaits me :(

I had fun last weekend,

but surprisingly I didn't go to Sunway Pyramid at all.

First time on my personal record this semester ^^

Nevertheless, I still enjoyed some of the movies on my laptop !

Anyway, this Monday and Tuesday has also been relaxing for me.

And yesterday, we fetch Ervandi from LCCT,

It was fun because we all went crazy,

and the weather was among the best I've ever feel in Malaysia.

Now, I hope my friend will make a trip somewhere in near future.

Since my College year is almost come to an end :(

Anyway, I'm gonna start my brain engine again today !

So homework, Here I come :p

My weekly movies :

Title : Date Night

Comment : "Just an average hollywood movie"

Title : First Love a.k.a A Little Crazy Thing Called Love

Comment : " Not like typical romantic movie, Mood-Swinger, My first Thai Movie"

Title : Toy Story 3

Comment : "Undeniably one of the best disney pixar's creation"

2011-03-25T05:32:00.000-07:00

What do you feel about weekend?

Yea, I feel the same too :D

What do you feel after finishing all your test?

Yea, I feel the same too :D

Basically I just did a lot of test and presentation over the last two weeks.

I feel like I'm in the heaven right now !

You wouldn't believe if I say I've done about 4 mock test, 1 presentation, and 3 tests.

But it's true, and I bet you know the feeling when it's all over.

Feel like ya just wanna die happy !

Well, it's been ups and downs for all the test,

and I'm so disappointed in math in particular !

I guess I'll fail this one :(

But yea, as my math teacher said, "Life is not over in test 3"

So you just gotta move on for future,

I really don't want to think of the results just yet,

Right now I want to chill around and watch as many movies as i can !

So I've targeted about five movies to watch over the weekend :)

And not to mention i have a PES Tournament tomorrow wif my bro, Jon, and Frans.

It's gonna be so fun :)

Anyway, have a good weekend everyone !

2011-03-14T06:22:00.000-07:00

4 mock tests in 3 days sure is not a joke !

This can really happen in MUFY surprisingly.

It actually doesn't counted in your mark but it really warns you about all the upcoming tests.

Oh God, March is though indeed. I've been wasting a lot of times having fun.

And been neglecting my studies during the month.

I swear to God I will change this attitude and be more aware of how hard my subjects can be !

There will no more Club 9 or Cyber Cafe, There will be less TGV Cinema in the future.

I've had enough of these things, I don't wanna drop my performance again !

Again, I'll be cautious with how much money should be spent over the weekend.

By the way, I'm sorry for what is happening in Japan lately.

They've been struck with a series of disasters and I am hoping for the best for 'em.

I'm sorry I couldn't help anything though :(

What I can do is only pray that no more disaster will struck 'em !

If only all the Indonesian corrupter were kind enough to give some of their money to Japan,

It will be helpful enough rather than spending all those dirty money !

Last but not least, my weekly movie for last week was,

"World Invasion : Battle Los Angeles"

If you watched this movie already, that is what happening in Japan today :(

Because Everyone Deserved A Second Chance

2011-03-07T08:20:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, I really can't stop thinking of you.

Just thinking about your presence really makes me happy.

But I've realized that you're no longer exist in my life.

You're no more than an imagination to me.

The moment between us in the past seemed so unreal.

The time when we used to like each other,

The time when we used to hang out together,

The time we used to spent just to meet each other,

The time we used to chat with each other.

It's a pain in the heart when you rejected my confession.

I know it's my fault not to choose the right time,

But is it really the main reason of your rejection?

You know that I will wish to fix this broken relationship if there's a shooting star.

If only I have a chance to postpone the confession,

If only I have a chance to be a better person,

If only I have a chance to fill that position.

Really, Our life would be so much different right now.

We would smile to each other when we meet,

We would laugh at each other when we joke.

But what for, we can't change how things had worked.

We can't turn back time.

Our relationship has worsen over time since the rejection,

I knew it, I expected it, I pictured it.

I have disappointed you even more than ever since then,

I have annoyed you even more than ever since then,

I have pissed you off even more than ever since then,

But if only you can read this single post,

I believe magic can happen.

Where imagination can turn into reality.

Where past can turn into present.

I would like to have a second chance with you.

And see how our past relationship have taught me.

Because everyone deserved a second chance

2011-03-06T00:59:00.000-08:00

First week of March almost come to an end.

To be honest, this is one of the most boring week I've ever been into.

I've done nothing productive at all, It's really a waste of my life.

Seriously even I have nothing to blog about my life !

It has becoming more and more boring over time.

No more event to blog, No more activity to blog, No more thing to blog basically.

I want to be like other blogger who has many picture to post,

I want to be like other blogger who has many words to put,

I want to be like other blogger who has good language to use,

I want to be like other blogger who has good event to tell,

I want to be like other blogger who has many readers !

But how can I become one if my blog is just so f***ed up.

Damn I really miss writing those quotes, poems, etc.

But I don't think I have enough confident to attract more reader,

because more and more people are uninterested in blog.

I really wish this blog can become one part of my life,

where people are eagerly waiting to see my next post.

where people are eagerly waiting to comment my next post.

But It's all seem impossible when I have blog like this :(

And It's all simply because my life is just so boring to be blogged.

Sigh.

Anyway I watched "Drive Angry" for this weekend.

"Drive Angry"

I'm curious of what to watch for the next weekend :)

2011-02-28T00:14:00.001-08:00

Again, it's been a long time since I've been blogging.

Seriously the last week of February really mad me busy.

Lucky enough, I managed to went through it :)

Anyway, I had an joyful weekend though last week,

My brother is now back to Malaysia, so I need to adapt to my old life again !

Another thing I wanna talk on this post is my appreciation to my new favorite actress.

I don't really know her at first cuz I only watch her once in "Other Boleyn Girl"

That didn't really make me like her though till I watched "No String Attached" two weeks back.

You guys should know who she is already when I mentioned two of her movies.

And yeah, She is Natalie Portman !

I want to congratulate her for winning the Oscar/Academy Award 2011 today :)

Not to mention, She also won Golden Globe 2011 back then. :)

Both are for the best leading actress for Black Swan !!

I hope she will get many more awards in the future,

And also looking forward to watching her new movies,

Because she is pregnant now, I'm wishing her a good & healthy baby for her future family.

And also hoping that it won't stop her for being awesome like she is now.

I'm sorry I couldn't watch your acceptance speech Live because of my stupid school

This was the movie I watched on the weekend, It's only one but a good one :)

"I am Number Four"

Appreciation

2011-02-28T00:14:00.000-08:00

2011-02-20T07:54:00.000-08:00

It has been a week since I updated my scrap paper.

I am having a busy schedule lately.

All the group work, homework and test sure were taking my time.

And it's not over yet, I still have upcoming presentation, test, and project to do !

And this weekend I've been enjoying two movies,

"The Mechanic" and "No String Attached"

Actually I don't really know much about the movie, but I do like all the actor.

So I just decided to watch it without thinking whether it will be good or bad.

In the end, it turns out to be a good one although the movies are censored !!

I think I am starting to like Natalie Portman after watching two of her movies.

She's just pure beauty :)

anyway, this is the movie cover !

Pyramid, February 14th 2011

2011-02-14T04:26:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day for everyone who read this post.

May all the single who wanna confess today will have a good luck,

and all the couple to hang out together somewhere just the two of you. :)

Sadly, I'm a single boy with no intention of confessing to anyone.

As tomorrow holiday, my friends asked me to play bowling in pyramid today.

And just for information they are guys not girls. I know It's really sad.

They are Kim, Taro, Naoki, and Taro's & Naoki's Japanese friends called Negi & Kosuke.

After bowling game, we decided to go for a pool game.

for the first one, it wasn't that fun because I was damn sleepy and barely concentrate.

Then, we had an early dinner at BBQ Plaza.

That was the time my eyes to wake up, because I saw food everywhere.

For so long I've never been eating at that restaurant before and I'm so satisfied & full.

Right after that, I separated with the japanese and hang out with Kim.

I tried to find a monopoly deal card but every store which provided it were out of stock.

For God Sake, the game's so popular till I can't even find one man :(

Just when I decided to go back, Kim asked me to go play dota together.

But in the end we go for another pool game, but not for Kim coz he fitness when I played the first.

That was the time when the game felt really nice.

And I swear it's the most fun pool game I've ever played so far.

So that's how I spend this valentine's day :)

I only took this picture which I found the only interesting thing from today

2011-02-10T08:26:00.000-08:00

"Once you enroll to MUFY, you will have a test every week and that's the price you have to pay"

- Ms Vani

Today in computer science class, my teacher tell one of the students this quote.

I've been thinking and thinking, and it's actually quite true.

Well not specifically test, but can be a quiz or presentation for at least one in a week.

expect maybe for the first month of the semester.

So what us, mufy students, can be relieved of is when we are actually free from test/quiz/presentation in a week.

Anyway just now Malaysia has been bombarded by fireworks,

People on facebook and twitter has started complaining.

maybe, just maybe something beautiful has its own ugly side somewhere just like fireworks

Simply Ironic !

2011-02-08T07:47:00.001-08:00

During the semester break I keep reminding my parents that Math B is going to be easy,

because it's all about statistics and probability.

My parents yet to believe me and ask me to have a short tuition back home.

They think I'm going to struggle later on.

And as the semester start, I keep feeling confident about my ability to do it easily.

And as a result, I'm being frustrated and depressed by it now.

I did my first test and guess what, I FAILED !!

But seriously it's just because of the misunderstanding of the question in most of the question.

And For God Sake, I'm the only one who failed in my class.

I'm totally embarrassed about it and never ever like math starting that day.

From my experience, I've never been troubled by math.

Well a bit but yea I still can handle it but I don't know why I can't this time.

One thing I learned is that you just got to do all the things on your own way as long as you're on the right track.

and the way I'm doin' thing is by thinking all the negative things first, and apparently it worked so far.

So it's simply ironic how math has turned into the scariest subject in my semester two.

Tomorrow's my second quiz so I really hope to do it well.

I will never want to be overconfident on something anymore

Just do what I have to do, Just do what I can do.

In the end, I like this picture somehow :p

Tinggal Seribu

2011-02-07T04:29:00.000-08:00

In this post, I just want to recommend a really good song.

It is actually made for those people who have a girlfriend but not enough money.

I bet you guys gonna enjoy it very much.

And yes, It's Indonesian Song.

I'm playing it 61 times already so far and it has become my top 25 most played song in my itunes.

Let's go hear it, download it right here.

If you have difficulty understand it, just think it this way.

Change the title to "Tinggal Seringgit"

It's malaysian way to say it :)

but the original title is 'Tinggal Seribu' by Goliath

CNY + Holiday

2011-02-05T22:48:00.000-08:00

Today is the last day of the holiday,

And I'm here in Malaysia writing this post.

I'm actually wishing to get another week of holiday,

But I guess I have to come back to reality sooner or later.

So before I start, I want to wish all the chinese people who read this post.

Happy Chinese New Year 2562, Gong Xi Fa Chai.

May you have a good health, wealth, and success in this year :)

Okay then let's start.

So I went back to Indonesia for the first time in a week holiday !

It's really a bless because not only I can gathered with my family but also I can tasted my hometown food.

It's a really divine feeling.

I bought a couple of stuff that I wanna bring to Malaysia.

Here are the things :

An umbrella to keep me safe from Malaysia's unpredictable weather

a book to start off my new hobby

a bag to help me carry a goddamn heavy laptop

So that's what I've bought and I'm going to cherish all of them :)

And just so you know, I'm an Indonesian Chinese.

So I celebrate CNY just like you guys too !

I don't have the photo of my family dinner during CNY eve,

but I do have other photos to show :

these are the cakes & drinks for the open house

and we actually have many other food to serve the guest,

but I don't have all the photos here.

One of the most important thing in Chinese New Year is this one below :

angpao

And I do believe all of you get this either from family or relative.

Unfortunately I have to go back to Malay just two days after the CNY,

So I can't really get many of 'em.

But it's enough though, Cuz I get around million and half Rupiah.

And this is the proof that I'm Indonesian Chinese !

*sorry for the pictures quality

2011-01-25T07:23:00.000-08:00

Today I officially finish the novel "To kill A Mockingbird",

and it's the third novel that I ever finished.

The novel consist of 376 pages which is the longest ever for me to finish off.

I really have a mixed feelings over it,

Somehow I feel proud to finish a novel when i'm not even interested in literature,

and somehow I also feel it's normal because I have to finish it for school purpose.

In fact, all of novels were for school purpose and not out of my interest to read it.

Hmm, anyways yea it's a very good novel.

I can't really describe it though, because it's a long long story indeed.

My advice is to read it yourselves and blame me if it ain't good.

And the others two novels that I read are "Of Mice & Men" & "And Then There Were None"

These are all good novels from good writers.

That's why you can feel that you're honored to read their art.

I don't need to prove it because all the novels are all converted into a movie.

And people said that novels are way way better than a movie,

because it let you to imagine things as it is and not by other point of view.

So these are all the covers for the novels

Note : There are a lot different covers for each novel :)

And my most favorite quote out of all is :

"I'd rather you shot at tin cans in the back yard, but I know you'll go after birds. Shoot all the bluejays you want, if you can hit 'em, but remember it's a sin to kill a mockingbird."

-Atticus Finch

2011-01-23T10:28:00.000-08:00

It has been 3 weeks since the second semester started,

I'm still giving no sign of good performance.

Day by day passed by yet I'm still below my expectation.

I wonder when will I get over this and go back to my old performance,

when I have less worry with tests or assignments.

Not to mention that I've been having fun with my friends the whole 3 weeks.

Maybe this is the real reason why my performance has dropped drastically.

But somehow I don't wanna use this as an excuse.

If only I can get things turned around, I won't feel scared like this :(

Oh God, please bless me for the last week of January.

I thought 2011 will be a good year but I was wrong at the first place.

It really gives me hell and I never been so down before !

And I'm here writing this post at 2.35 AM and I can't sleep.

I need a motivation to get me up there where I can be calm and positive about things.

God, please give me an answer for this

Something I enjoy in Facebook :)

2011-01-22T04:28:00.000-08:00

Let's just get to the point.

Here are some of the screen shots of something I enjoy.

These three pictures were taken from Restaurant City & Happy pets game.

And I don't play because I want to kill time or something.

This is basically what I wanna to have but I can't,

So I just play it virtually.

And if ya wonder why restaurant got anything to do with it.

It's because food is best thing in the world,

and I have a dream to make the best restaurant in the world.

You may laugh, but It's really one of my dream although I know I can't make it true.

As for Dinosaur, it's simply my most favorite animal :)

Top 25 Most Played !

2011-01-21T01:35:00.000-08:00

By looking at the title, you can see how bored I was !

Actually, I've been thinking to post it up earlier but I keep postponing till today.

So yeah, just for your information.

I want to show you guys what's my 'Top 25 Most Played' Songs in my Itunes.

Here we go :)

So why don't you see yours and match it up with me :)

or if you feel you need song recommendation,

you can download one of 'em and listen to it !

It's okay if you don't understand,

because song is just something you need not to understand,

Feel it with your heart and they'll make you free.

And they'll also release all your stress and cool you down !

So why don't you post your 'Top 25 Most Played' Songs,

And share with me :)

I wanna be one of 'em !

2011-01-16T00:41:00.000-08:00

Last night Billie, Ervandi, and I went to pyramid to accompany frans to buy his fish tank,

he said that he needed a larger tank for the fish to move around.

I really salute him to spend a lot of money just for his fishes,

although he said that he's not even a pet lover.

Well actually from his lifestyle, he used to spend a lot of money,

but never seen him spend it for his pet.

It's really amazing how you see people get along with animal and more if you're one of 'em !

I sincerely want to be one of 'em.

But I can't really say I love animal because I disgusted by some of 'em,

But I really wanna devoted some of time to a pet,

and I prefer it to be a dog especially German shepherd which I've been wanting it for so long.

but I need to gain courage towards dogs to pet 'em,

and I tell you I've been traumatic towards 'em before so it's hard to turn that around !

But really, it amaze me to see a person who pet an animal !

That's why I can't stand it whenever I go to pet store.

I just wanna be one of 'em who buy pet food, cage, etc.

To conclude it, I wanna be a pet lover !

or if I can't, let me pet an animal just like Frans & Ervandi :)

2011-01-14T19:40:00.000-08:00

Just right after posting yesterday post,

Luck has flipped the bad luck of mine into a lucky one.

What I meant here is that I hung out with my friends yesterday.

It kinda of sudden because they all just said yes when I asked,

We were playing pool till midnight and it kinda fun,

I can't play pool well so I was just enjoying the game.

I cancelled my plan to watch "Faster" though.

But I can watch it anytime since it's just airing on 13th.

So I guess that's life, It's so unpredictable and surprising.

Just when you had the best moment of your life,

the day after may be your worst moment of your life and vice versa.

2011-01-13T07:25:00.000-08:00

I really screwed my math quiz up yesterday.

It wasn't a really good-to-see mark I got.

And this is only proving that I'm not ready for second semester just yet.

To be honest, yea I need a lot more time to adapt but I just don't get a chance.

My test is coming up next week yet I'm still struggling with the subject.

I think by being optimistic and feel a little bit more confident will solve it.

And I have to be optimal starting tomorrow or else I will suffer even more than now.

But that's not the main point I'm going to talk here,

The real main point is the one below.

Since I've enrolled MUFY, I've been hangin' out by myself most of the time.

Many people think I have no friend at all, but trust me I do really wanna hang out together.

It's just that all my friends live in KL and I'm in Sunway.

Now I really look like a sad and lonesome boy by most of the people.

I know I'm not that good at socializing and most of the time someone start talking to me first.

I've also rejected some of the offer from my friend to hang out together.

But it was because I've a really big financial trouble last semester,

so I can't really go anywhere and waste my money !

Now that I really can go out and spend some money,

I have no more hang out friends because they all have new hang out friend.

Every weekend, I go to pyramid by myself, watch by myself, and even eat by myself.

I guess that's life !

As time passed by, you just have to live it.

And most importantly never be pessimistic about life,

because I believe one day you will feel satisfied on what you're living in right now ! :)

And yes, Today I'm going to hang out alone AGAIN !

First Week Of School !

2011-01-07T04:58:00.000-08:00

I'm glad to be back for my last semester of high school.

It's actually true that high school is the best moment of your life !

That's when you can feel of being coupled, having fun, and do what adults don't do.

Yet, I don't have a girlfriend as a matter of fact :P

And today is the end of my first week of college.

The subjects that I take are English, Math, Computer Science & Accounting.

I am taught by a beautiful teacher in English,

a I-don't-really-know teacher in Math,

a really good teacher in Computer Science,

And last but not least by a really funny and kind teacher in Accounting.

I don't know whether it will be a good semester or not, but I'm always hoping for the best !

Like always It is boring in the first week when you don't know anyone in class,

so I wish I will getting along with other students as time goes by.

But they have to accept who I am cuz I'm not a really friendly and a very shy person.

And from what I've seen so far, it's not gonna be an easy path to move on.

Anyway, my 2011 resolution is just to graduate from this course with a really prideful score.

So that's it for today :)

And also I think I gonna watch Paranormal Activity 2 tomorrow.

so pray for me so I won't get heart attack, Okay !

May you all have a good weekend :)

Happy As Ever

2011-01-03T05:16:00.000-08:00

I'm over the moon right now,

Never been as happy as this for a long time !

If ya wonderin' why, It's all about my 1st Semester Final Result.

It has been the greatest achievement that I've been achieved.

It's really surprising for a plain guy like me seriously.

It may be usual for some smart and hardworking students,

But to be honest, this is the best result I ever get so far !

So don't laught at me and mock me, I know I'm that bad -.-

Anyway, 2011 has been pretty well for me except I got into some minor troubles !

But it will be done by this week I guess.

One last thing I want to say is that finally I'm BACK TO SCHOOL.

It's been a really long holiday, and yet I still want it to be longer.

I have no choice but to continue my journey to second semester,

or I can say the last semester of High School !

The time, indeed, flies so fast.

Feel like I just started High School Yesterday.

2011-01-02T03:41:00.000-08:00

Because tomorrow my school is officially starting,

I decided to have some fun before that.

Yeap, It is a watching spree and I never do this very often.

But this time, I did it by myself without any friend sadly..

Although it's a bit of lonely, I still enjoyed it very much.

The two movies that I chose were Rapunzel and Narnia 3,

To be honest, My cousin was right that Narnia 3 isn't that good !

So for you guys who haven't watch it, THINK TWICE !!

But for Rapunzel it is a well done movie,

You guys should watch that one !

But I've been thinking whether I'm actually still childish to watch a cartoon !?!?

But who cares as long as I'm happy, right?

Anyway, I've been watching trailer by trailer,

And I have two upcoming movies that I have to watch in the future.

They are "The Green Hornet" & "Suckerpunch"

Hope it will be a damn good ones !

But now, I gotta warming up for school.

Have a good holiday for you who still on your holiday !

May you have a good day readers :D

These are both the cover of Narnia 3 and Rapunzel !

It's Time To Change

2011-01-01T04:20:00.000-08:00

It's 1/1/11 and It's not time to be happy just yet !

Problem by problem has been coloring my previous year,

and I don't want that to happen again this year.

I have planned ahead a big change of my life in this 2o11..

May this be a successful year for me to change because I've failed anytime I tried..

It's not an easy job of course but with all the strongwill I believe I'll do it.

To be honest, there are some good moments of 2010 as well..

Especially for the last two months that I've never predicted.

I thought by going home it's going to be really boring, but It has been pretty well instead.

Except for losing my Chinese New Year moneey !

Not forget to mention that Singapore has really entertained me really well also

especially on 28/12 @ USS (Universal Studio Singapore)

And I have to be more determination to change and enjoy the rest of my life.

It is the time of my life to change,

To be a maturer and better person !

Btw, Happy New Year 2011 Bloggers

May You All Have A Wonderful Year !

The End Of First Semester !

2010-11-14T13:13:00.000-08:00

12 November 2010 marks the end of MUFY officially,

I wish all of the students the best for their results,

and of course congrats the seniors who pass this course and move on to Uni !

Since my exam finished earlier than I thought, I have an extended holiday,

It was really fun to spend time here actually,

Been playing card everyday with my old friend !

Well Let me tell about my first semester experience now.

My first semester wasn't really as bad as I thought,

As time passed by, I feel more and more accepted being in here.

I get more friends towards the end of the semester,

and of course thanks to my silliness and stupid action of me,

And I really don't mind it at all if they want to think of me as a bad or just normal person,

Coz As long as they talk to me, I will be even happier to be around..

I guess the semester was a little bit quiet in terms of events,

Since I was busy with studying !

I guess that's all about my first semester.

Anyway, I went to Ministry of Sound Yesterday,

It was really my first time to go clubbing yet it is in the best night club in Sunway !

It was really awesome inside and we all went dancing till our leg almost broke to pieces,

And luckily we didn't get drunk but the girls weren't satisfying at all..

I hope I get a chance to meet a nice one in the future when I go clubbing..

It also marks the farewell with my friend, Jonathan !

Good Luck for you on the future if ya read this post bro..

I guess that's it for this post

Obama Visit makes me miss my hometown but wait?

2010-11-10T05:08:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, Obama came to Indonesia for the second time but as American President.

I've never expected he was studying in Indonesia before.

It was really a big shock to me to know this.

Anyway, I was reading the news on what he was eating when he visited Indonesia.

Come as a surprise, It's all the food that I miss so much !

Now that 5 days later I will be Indonesia, I've been targeting to eat all the food that I miss..

But wait, Malaysia isn't so bad..

They have most of the Indonesian food that I miss with really similar taste..

It's a mix feeling I have here..

On one hand, I enjoy so much being here plus I hate travelling back and forth..

I really hope that my family come instead,

But on the other hand, I feel that I should breathe the air there after being out for 5 months..

There I could sleep in my original bed and feel the warmth of a family..

I do miss my mom, dad, bro, sis, grandma but I really prefer them to come here than coming back home..

But it's a really selfish thought I have, and I should have been happy to be able to go back..

Which most of my Indo friends are really hoping for..

Oh my, I wish I can live in two places at a time !

Where I can enjoy pyramid as well as breathe my hometown's air..

But I guess it's just really hopeless..

Well then, Indonesia I'm Coming Soon..

And I will be out of Internet Service for awhile maybe !

2nd Home

2010-11-09T12:00:00.000-08:00

I still remember the first time I've decided to move to Malaysia.

It was the biggest step I've ever took in my life so far.

I never expected I would live a nice life there,

I thought it's going to be a rough environment and i would be unaccepted in there..

But it seems after years of learning this culture and environment,

I feel that I fit in this environment,

People here are so friendly, environment is so clean.

To be honest, Indonesia is nothing compare to Malaysia,

Well except the food and the variety of vacation spot !

But if I have to choose, I would prefer to bring all my family to stay here..

Live life here which is safer and more comfortable.

I will be up to date for movie, music, news and everything..

Not to mention that even I stay in Sunway for 2 years +,

I still feel that this is actually my home in a form of apartment..

I really wish I have the money to move my family here..

But I guess, I don't have any luck to do that and my family prefer Singapore as well !

It's 5 days since the start of holiday, yet I don't feel going back home..

I don't feel homesick or anything like that..

But above all, I still consider Indonesia as my hometown ..

So I will proudly say that Malaysia is my second home.

And I never feel bored to live here ever.

Not till I'm feeling unaccepted here anymore !

Faith

2010-11-08T06:55:00.000-08:00

Do you ever think that you're unlucky to be born in such bad place?

Well, I mean not in a better place.

When you see Hollywood movies, you feel so jealous of being American,

Since America is the most developed country in this world,

you simply feel safer and more comfortable in there than any other place

You will say that you have a bad faith on yourselves and life isn't fair at all !

We are human and it's true that we always tend to take all the negative side over all things.

But is it worth believing it?

Just because you have a black hair,brown eyes, small and short body posture,

You simply say you have a worse faith than a blonde hair,blue eyes, big and tall body posture?

I know I'm one of you right now..

And I do get jealous because I ain't one of them..

But to think all of that will just make my life worse..

Life is only once to live yet we always 'What If' on our mind !

What If I'm born in a better place?

I do believe that poor people like me have a bad faith..

But Believe this also, We have this bad faith because we are born to change it.

We can't cry over our faith and look down on ourselves.

There's no other life to try on, this is the only chance to try,

And if we really reborn then we have another faith to change..

What we need to have are will, luck and passion.

We determine our own life !

We live our own life !

So let's stop believing in bad faith because we can change them.

Live our life to the fullest,

And also remember that a downfall of our life is not a bad faith.

It's because we are simply lack of will, luck, passion and determination.

And it has nothing to do with faith at all !

It's just a false belief,

I'm trying to get rid of this false belief I have in me !

I really do !

And what encourage me of this thought are the hollywood movie themselves..

Because we live in the world to accept every weakness that people have,

Not to have every strength they have.

Cameron Highland & Adeline's Villa Trip

2010-11-06T08:15:00.000-07:00

Yesterday 3 AM, Ervandi, Billie, Frans, and I started our journey to Cameron Highland. We were planning to go to the Strawberry farm, so I didn't sleep again for 3 days straight. It was really silent on the street and we barely see cars around. At first, I was thinking where the hell did they know how to go there but It was answered by the GPS and Car that Ervandi bought. It was the first time that he used it though. So we were lost in middle of the street for around 30 minutes till we finally understand to follow the GPS, It's a really helpful thing actually.

Most of the time I fell asleep in the car because I wasn't sleeping for a really long time till finally we arrived we saw the Cameron Highland Sign ! We were all joyful and really spirited. But it's a freaking long way up and zigzag to Cameron Highland. We managed to reach up although we were all dizzy. We found a small village there and stop have a breakfast. The weather is really nice in the morning. Then we were planning to sleep in the car for awhile but we ended up continuing our journey due to our curiosity of Cameron Highland. We went straight to look for Strawberry Farm but It was really a long trip. We pass through Tea Farm & Bee Farm and took hours to finally found the perfect farm.

We got in to the garden with full of strawberry and bribe the person in charge so we can eat them up at the spot. But we couldn't eat much because of the breakfast. We ask the person to pick for us for the good ones and we bought all of 'em. After that, we went to the Bee Farm to see what's inside the farm. It's nothing much but flowers and strawberry inside, but they do have many bees inside and luckily it's not the dangerous one. We then went out of Cameron Highland and planning to go to Gopeng Resort in Ipoh. On our way back down the same track that we used to go up, we were trapped in jam. We found out that a truck fell down to from the road. It was very crowded and the truck was lifted up with a really horrible condition. What's funny was there are 4 chickens inside the truck so I assume it's the transport truck and some of the chicken might die or flee.

After the accident, we resuming our journey to Ipoh for 2 hours. Arrive in Gopeng Resort, we were planning to do rafting but we were out of cash because it's a really sudden plan of us going to the resort. So we were discussing and ended up finding for food there. We found a hut there that we thought was a restaurant but it was the same with Gopeng Resort. It's a place to book for many water activities such as rafting, speedboat-ing, water abseilling. They also offer for nightwalking, paintball, and many other activities. So we took a couple of minutes to discuss again and ended up Ervandi wanted to do water abseilling. So after that, they actually got food there but it wasn't in the hut. It was in the Adeline's Villa and we were offered a RM20 Buffet in the villa but the food wasn't so nice. After that, we went straight to the waterfall for Ervandi to water abselling and us chilling in the waterfall. It was a really nice place. The people, jungle, river, waterfall were just so great. A couple of hours later, we went back from waterfall to Adeline's Villa and it was a raining heavily. We were all wet and unfortunately only me wasn't bring a spare clothes so I have to be wet for the rest of the day. So after they all get changed, we headed back to Sunway.

It was a really great experience and wonderful trip I have yesterday. That was one of the best moment in life that I have so far. I plan to hang out more with my friends after the trip. Maybe we will go to Adeline's Villa again to raft this time and of course with a lot of money ! So we can do many activities or maybe we'll go someplace further I don't know with even more friends. Life is full of mystery and we just need to live it well I guess. For the photos, You can see on facebook in Frans Tanuwijaya's Album ! :)

2010-11-03T12:14:00.000-07:00

Okay AGAIN today is Thursday at 3 AM..

And I'm not sleeping !!

And you know WHY?? BECAUSE I CAN'T SLEEP !!!

And this is seriously not funny at all..

I thought It would happen once but this is seriously freaking me out..

I have a freaking exam at 9 later And I just slept for freaking 4 hours for two days..

Human needs at least 16 hours in two days..

When I get only 4 hours, That's 1/4 of the normal necessity of sleeping!

This is not a single thing that I have to handle anymore..

This is over the limit..

I really really wish that I have some kind of sleeping pills.

But I don't where to buy it and I don't have any panadol to eat !

Holy Shit, I guess I have to stand till 9 AM..

Do The Exam...

And Start My Holiday with Sleeping !

2010-11-02T11:50:00.000-07:00

Today is Wednesday and I am writing this post late at 3 AM..

Yet I have to do my exam paper at 9..

Shouldn't I be sleeping now?

That's the question I have in mind right now..

I think I am suffering from insomnia maybe because I've been sleeping late recently..

Is this really the feeling of some people who can't sleep at night?

The worry of incapability of doing well for tomorrow.

The feeling of guilty that you shouldn't have done..

I am really hope that I am capable of doing well for today's paper..

It's the paper that I want to get the highest mark on..

Really It does annoying for not be able to sleep during important date like this..

But I guess, It' better when you can't sleep than you can't wake up..

My point of talking this is that..

Let's stop complaining on a little thing that we think may ruin the rest of the day..

You think that because you can't sleep in the night,

You may fail the exam..

You think that if you fail the exam,

You are ruining your day..

So what's the point of having today if you ruin your day?

I mean we do feel disappointed with that, but do we need to get disappointed the whole day?

And Why do we need to cry over all a little thing in our life?

This is one thing that I have to bear in my mind..

I shouldn't be crying over a little thing like insomnia..

Instead, I have to overcome this by studying well till the exam starts and do well later.

So I think that this is a lesson for everybody who always cry over a single thing like me..

2010-11-01T04:09:00.001-07:00

Exam is coming in just two days time and I really want to do well on these..

But I'm a type of person who doesn't like pressure..

Pressure is giving me less freedom on my work..

I am demanded to get High Distinction on the rest of the exam...

yet, I feel that Distinction is just satisfying for me..

Speaking of Exam, It means that my first semester is going to an end soon..

I feel that I don't make a lot of friends during my first..

But I feel that MUFY is really a great path that I took..

It teaches me different culture with many different people..

The people are somehow friendly as well..

I am so glad that I don't make the wrong choice..

This is the path that I took..

And this path will lead me to a brighter future...

Although I have to let go so many friends because of this..

And not forget to mention that MUFY T-Shirt is my most favorite clothes beside Football Jersey..

Oh I guess, I can't forget MUFY..

I wish I could make more friends than I do now..

I know that this post is not meaningful..

It's because I just feel like writing it here..

It's Funny ....

2010-10-30T00:06:00.000-07:00

It's funny how we can be friends just by saying "Hi'..

It's funny how we can be friends just because teacher group us together..

It's funny how we can be friends just because you're my friend's friend..

It's funny how we can be friends just because we are in the same class..

It's funny how we can be friends just by randomly add and accept friend request on facebook..

It's funny how we can be friend just because we bump into each other...

It's funny how we can turns our friendship into a relationship..

And

It's funny how we are not friend just because we never see each other for a long time..

It's funny how we are not friends just because we are lacking the word "Hi"..

It's funny how we are not friends just because you find someone closer..

It's funny how we are not friends just because you reject my confession..

It's funny how we are not friends just by saying "Bye"

It's funny how friendship can come by saying "Hi" and go away by saying "Bye"

Then

It's funny how friendship can come and go away just like that..

But

It's funny when I read this, I feel I can't accept all this..

Because

It's funny that it all happens to all of us !

Soul

2010-10-29T01:01:00.000-07:00

When the first time I decided to start making a blog,

There is only 'You' who always inspire me,

you always pushes me to keep writing and writing..

Without even realizing that I have written so much on my blog..

My blog maybe boring and making you sleepy..

But You always spend your little time to read this blog..

I can't feel more honored to be inspired by such person...

And when blogging is not one of the favorite things to do,

Again I was pushed to keep blogging by you..

Maybe blogging isn't something that can be considered as hobby..

Maybe blogging isn't something big like writing a book or novel..

And yes blogging isn't something that we can sell or buy..

But I've realized one thing about blogging..

Only in my blog, I found what I've treasured..

Only in my blog, I found all those lost memories..

Only in my blog, I found a small part of my life..

And when I decided to delete that part of my life,

Again You remind that I'm actually killing myself..

Now that my blog has reborn-ed,

I've decided you to be the soul of my blog..

Without soul, I can't live,

And without you, My Blog can't live..

you are the soul of my blog !

Whether or not you realized about this, Thanks To You..

Now I've found that missing part of my life...

18.10.2010

2010-10-18T07:23:00.000-07:00

I was in school for 2 hours just to do english trial exam..

Need to improve my vocabulary skills a little bit..

After that, I managed to get a long waited Passport that I've been wanting to take..

It's such a relief that I have taken mine..

Right after school, I was ironing all my clothes..

they were damn a lot till I have to take 30 minutes to do it..

Damn, I hate postponing thing..

I gotta rest after that because I just couldn't take it anymore..

It is always nice to have a nap in a free time..

All my energy is filled up and I don't need to do any homework..

Because today is such a free day that I really need..

In fact, I did watch movie in the weekday..

I watched "When In Rome" and maybe gonna watch either "Knight and Day" or "Marley and me"

And guess what? I might watch all of 'em...

That's it for today

_______________________________________

Alvin Linus

15.10.2010 - 17.10.2010

2010-10-16T20:50:00.000-07:00

I couldn't manage to write a diary on 15th and 16th due to a bad mood...

So i will sum 3 days up here...

The 15th has been a really boring day..

I went back from school at 5 due to the test I have to take after school..

And It was really really hard if I have to say..

The teacher did say it would be tough but I never predicted it would that tough..

Hmm,, I guess I won't get any good marks for that two tests !

And I spent all my day to study for Math Trial Exam on the 15th..

And that's how my 15th ended...

Coming to 16th, It's been a really worst day I've ever had..

I was doing the Math Trial exam which is on SATURDAY..

And guess what? I couldn't managed to finish three main important questions...

And that would cost me a lot..

So the highest possible mark I would get is around 50-55 !

And I am still hoping for the best...

After the test, I watched a couple of movies just to relax my mind...

yet the movie weren't so good...

And that's how my 16th ended..

for the 17th,

I think I will be doing studying AGAIN...

For the English Trial Exam..

At least this won't cost me anything..

And I guess I will be watching a couple of movies before that !

This week is my worst performance in terms of academic..

I really really hope there's still some hope for the results..

anyway that's it for the summary

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Alvin Linus

14.10.2010

2010-10-14T08:04:00.001-07:00

I have a real fun today...

I went to cyber cafe with Leo, Kim, And Naoki for 4 hours..

My eyes are a bit tired though..

After that, Taro join the party and we went to Summer Steamboat..

And we all ate like pigs..

We didn't care what we were eating as long as we are full..

Anyway, Kim treated us for everything..

He's such a nice guy !

But school seems worse and worse each day..

I didn't understand a single thing in math and I felt bad about it..

My Trial Exam is coming in less than 48 hours yet I have to do 2 tests before that..

I have no time to study all of the chapters in math..

Oh my, and it's worth 25% of the whole 30% of math..

I really really do hope that God forgive me this time and help me..

To pass this course and I don't want this to be a shame in my academic record..

So God Please Help Me !

That's It For Today

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Alvin Linus

13.10.2010

2010-10-13T07:54:00.000-07:00

School is a little bit crazy today..

After the math class, it seemed like I'm drunk..

I can't control myself after finding out that I only get 61 on my Math Test 3...

It's really sad to get a mark which is not even a satisfactory..

And that made me went crazy in Computer Science class and English class..

I really couldn't control myself, It's not me and even the teacher noticed that...

It's been really shitty recently..

And I have to take a nap today because I was really really tired..

But I managed to buy Kim a gift though :)

Gotta give it to him tomorrow !

And apparently the shit that I did yesterday turned out to be real sweet.

I understand the assignment and I managed to finish 80% of it in 3 hours..

Ain't that bad !

But It's 10.58 and I still haven't revise for math & finish English Essay !

I think I will stay up real late today !

Oh I hate today, I really really hate today !!!

that's it for today

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Alvin Linus

12.10.2010

2010-10-12T07:54:00.000-07:00

School is pretty nice since I've only one class every tuesday..

Had a nice talk with Kim, Taro, Naoki and Leo..

But it was pretty awkward to ask the birthday guy for what present he wants to have.

It's because Kim is having his birthday two days later..

It will be a fucking nice moment to have..

Since I have never gone out with them..

That would be my first ever time..

Going to buy him a present tomorrow :)

Anyway, after school is so boring..

Got to do an accounting assignment which I didn't know how to do..

Felt like doing shit for a really LONG time..

And I couldn't manage to finish it because I'm stuck with that shit..

After that, doing some revision for Computer Science..

At Least I got some ideas for the theory..

That's it for today

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Alvin Linus

11.10.2010

2010-10-11T07:31:00.000-07:00

School is as usual today..

Except I got test on the second period..

It was such a careless mistake I did during the test..

But there's no worth thinking about it...

As there are more tests to come..

On Friday, Practical & Topic Test For Com Science

On Saturday, Math Trial Exam

On Next Monday, English Trial Exam..

they're really giving me a pain in the ass..

As I don't know which one to study

All seems to important to me yet I can't divide my time fairly...

I did a revision and I'm Stuck..

This is how fucked up I am for Friday Test..

The Rest Of The Day I Was Doing Homework & I Wasn't Able To Do It

Today is so so fucked up..

But I got a HD For My English Test

That's the only good thing for today

I guess that's it for today

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Alvin Linus

10.10.2010

2010-10-10T05:51:00.000-07:00

Nothing much I can do for today.

I've been studying for the whole day..

And still going to spend the rest of the day studying..

Anyway, I downloaded a couple of Cheryl Cole Pics AGAIN..

When I stick to one idol, It's hard to stop downloading her picture..

I really miss my old way of blogging..

Talking bullshit about stuff..

about so many events of my life..

However my life seems event-less that makes it nothing to blog about..

And that's why I decided to make a diary..

I really really don't know how to write a diary properly..

This diary really sucks and I bet no one read excepts me..

I keep thinking to be back to my old way of blogging..

Maybe I will one day !

It's just a thought though..

That's it for today..

Happy 10.10.10 everyone..

It only can happen again in 100 years...

Make the best of today

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Alvin Linus

09.10.2010

2010-10-09T07:42:00.001-07:00

It's a first time experience since I move in to this country to have class on Saturday.

I couldn't feel the atmosphere of school at all..

More like a tuition to me..

However, It was a really really important class.

After class, I continued my sleeping..

And believe me,it felt really nice :)

I downloaded a couple of Cheryl Cole photos as well..

She's indeed a sexiest woman alive !!!

And I did my math homework after waking up,,

spent the rest of the day watching movie and online-ing..

Oh I love weekend =)

That's it for today !

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Alvin Linus

08.10.2010

2010-10-08T06:55:00.001-07:00

School is normal today except for the extra class..

After school seemed all fine as well..

But I was too lazy to do any sport activity today..

But there's one disappointing thing which is the message that I got from my friend..

I really don't want to talk about this..

But I've concluded that today is the end of our relationship..

And time to move on..

Anyway, I am going to watch a couple of movies for today.

And also do some revision for my computer science.

Tomorrow I'll be having 2 hours extra class which is the first time in Saturday.

It's really really sad.

But it's weekend, That's the good thing..

I think that's it for today

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Alvin Linus

07.10.2010

2010-10-07T04:03:00.001-07:00

School is pretty short today..

Each is 45 minutes and my last class end at 12.30..

Not to mention that I've had a 30 minutes class before in this semester..

It's damn short to have a class actually.

But after school is a bit dull..

I was doing nothing but to fell asleep.

But I really blissful to get a chance to chat with her again..

The last time I've chatted with her was like a month ago..

And guess what, I can't deny my feeling towards her.

This feeling never disappear..

I really really hate to have this feeling actually..

Because I know that it will be different after that 'Moment'...

But I have a chance to at least get close to her again..

And that's already good..

I am as well happy about the accounting project thingy.

Seems that my group members have a faith on me..

I will try not to disappoint them then..

And yeah, the rest of today will be spent again to do homework.

And I really made a big decision not to attend the Mufy Talent Quest..

I think that's it for today.

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Alvin Linus

06.10.2010

2010-10-06T04:21:00.001-07:00

Today is a really tiring day..

Have an extra class at 4pm to 5 pm..

But it's kinda fun actually because it's my favorite subject.

I am getting use to the programming unit already..

That's one good thing for today..

It's also my sister's birthday today..

Happy Birthday Win Win..

Wish you all the best...

Anyway, I did swim for awhile after school..

And I guess I'll spend the rest of the day doing homework..

It's a lot of homeworks actually but I don't know why I'm on fire doing it.

And I feel bad about my accounting group assignment..

I think my teammate has really lost their trust on me !

But I'll fix it as soon as I can I hope..

Wish all the best for everything..

I guess that's it for today..

See you tomorrow

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Alvin Linus

05.10.2010

2010-10-05T04:09:00.000-07:00

Today is just an usual school day..

Except I learnt programming & coding..

It's quite hard but I will get used to it I believe..

Doin' Nothin much basically.

After school, Get some rest..

cleaning up my room..

Fitness and probably will spend the rest of the day doin' my homework..

No movie for today..

I guess That's it for 05.10.2010 Diary !

See You Tomorrow

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Alvin Linus

04.10.2010

2010-10-04T00:57:00.000-07:00

So I've been planning to make my blog as my diary..

I know it's a bit girly and embarrassing, but I just want to know how long I can keep writing my diary..

I really want to write it everyday till the end of my life..

And let the date decide when my life going to end,

I know It's not good to think of this thing, but It's not for fun.

I mean it when I said I want to know how long I'm going to stay in this world.

So let's start with 04.10.2010..

Today, the school isn't really boring nor fun.

Doing work most of the time and I got my test paper back.

I got 86 for it, and it is quite an accomplishment for a guy like me..

And the rest of the school went as usual..

Now, at 4.03 pm I wrote this blog and start something crazy.

I really want to document my life.

And yeah, I guess the rest of today will only be doing some homeworks..

And if I can, I might want to watch a movie at the night.

Because I have one class for tomorrow..

And I guess that's it for 04.10.2010.

See you tomorrow

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Alvin Linus

Reunion Party !

2010-10-02T03:43:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was really fun, I mean really really fun..

My friends and I have some kind of BBQ party,

But It wasn't in the park or something..

It's inside the apartment..

Yea basically everyone who get invited did come,

And I never know it could be quite fun..

Maybe it's because everyone seems stress and feel so relieved to let it all go..

We Cooked, We Ate, We drank, We Played..

We Rocked This World..

And If ya don't believe it, The security came twice to chill us down..

It was actually for some kind of reunion as well

because everyone seems far to each other due to different institutions that we enroll in..

I don't have any photos to show,

but you can let Your imagination flow through your mind on how fun the party was..

I'm Back !

2010-10-01T00:47:00.000-07:00

It has been almost a week since the last time i blogged..

This is because of a stupid week that let me do three unit tests and one oral presentation in just a week..

And yes, I've finished all of that thanks to my strong mentality..

Never feel so relieved like this before..

On this weekend, I might catch one or two movies to let go all my stress..

Anyway, I still feel so disappointed about the Math Test and Oral Presentation..

First, Math Test was freaking hard

Second, I was overtime by 1 and half minute during the presentation..

That's a lot of time and I will get some mark cut..

Seriously, I could have done better if I re-present that..

But the past is the past..

Now Let's look at the future and hope for a good results..

And I target at least 70 above for all those assessments..

But still I don't think I did well about the presentation and the test..

Ah, Who Cares Anyway?

And It's time to have some fun..

So Let's Rock This World :)

2010-09-25T21:02:00.001-07:00

I wish some people realize this !

First Time Experience !

2010-09-21T02:07:00.000-07:00

School has make me busier than ever now,

I can't be as relax as before..

I will have three tests and an oral presentation for next week..

Anyway,, Today is really a great day..

I had one class which is the afternoon class.

and after the class finished, I met Kim on my way back home.

He asked me to look at his new car which I have looked once already..

But this time isn't the same as first..

Guess what,, Kim took me for a ride around Sunway City..

With his 3 weeks old Sport Car..

This is my first time to ever been in a sport car before..

It's a super fast and cool car.

He even drove with a really high speed that makes my heart beat faster,

and feel like crashing nearby cars..

Although it's just a short ride, but now I know the feeling to ride a sport car.

It's very different with a normal car..

And if you really curious what a car that Kim bought..

It's an Alfa Spider Romeo..

This is the one :)

But I didn't get the chance to open the top of car.

Maybe Next time will do

Back 2 school

2010-09-19T08:17:00.001-07:00

In a couple of minutes this awful sunday will turn into a tiring monday.

I don't know what should I feel right now.

Meeting friends that I don't really close with,

Meeting teacher that are somehow friendly,

And facing the upcoming challenges.

It's really a mix feeling..

Based on my experience, I never get any improvement since midterm is finished.

And I believe this will keep going on.

With the 3 Test and 1 Major Presentations Coming on this month,

I shouldn't be very relax anymore.

It has been a good luck that I got all High Distinction for all my unit tests,

And I am so proud of it.

I have about 2 months and several days to fight.

And I really really really want the best for my education.

But I have to be ready for the decline of my marks starting tomorrow.

Because I believe I will get a really really low mark for my math test..

And Let's just hope for the best for now !

Quotes Time

2010-09-18T06:33:00.000-07:00

"Love is blind, therefore we can not be as blind as love"

"You're smart to make a right choice, but you're stupid not to consider the left choice"

"Don't fight for love when you don't have a ring to win"

"Some friends are just passing by your life, so don't put too much trust on them"

"Realization always comes after regret"

"You don't need thousand friends but to have thousand moments with a friend to make a beautiful life"

"Sometimes your best friends are the one who can't talk because you want to be heard not to be advice by them"

"I hate those who can't appreciate me, but I hate those who can't appreciate what I've done more"

"Just love those who hate you so they can realize how stupid they were to hate you before"

"You don't need sometime to forget but someone to forget the one "

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Last but not least and it's from someone I don't know,

"Dog is man's best friend"

Moving On

2010-09-18T06:14:00.000-07:00

Everytime I move out from my old school to a brand new school,

It always leave me a bad feeling of it.

Either I am losing all my friends or I can't simply treasure a single moment.

No matter it's my fault or theirs, I can't find any reason why.

When I feel so relieve that I won't meet any of my bad friend,

At the same time I feel disappointed to be left out by my good friend..

Every effort, every achievement, every action I did,

aren't good enough to place my name on their heart.

It's like finishing a book without getting any knowledge of it..

So I guess this kind of thing is my past,

And a hurtful past is what I need to make a beautiful future.

There will be no second mistake.

There will be no more regret.

It's time to read another book and learn from it,

and burn off all the book that I've read.

Keep all the ashes in a bottle.

Forget all the faces that I want to forget.

And take picture all the faces that I want to remember.

It's time to move on, step up to a higher floor of life.

And when I reach the peak of my life,

It's the time to throw that bottle as far as I can.

2010-09-16T23:45:00.000-07:00

In the earlier post, I've talked about selfish...

Which my friend consider me a walking money...

But after a few days, I've been thinking that if I talk about this..

It makes me selfish as well..

After all, they are my friend...

And I don't want to destroy what I've done so far..

In life, There are good friends and bad friends..

bad friends are not your enemies, otherwise you wouldn't call them a friend...

What is lacking in my life now is the union with Buddha..

I never pray for a long time and I always think that God isn't exist..

I am so sinful right now..

All of sudden, I remembered what He taught us..

that to fight your enemies is to love your enemies..

I feel so guilty to forget about Buddha..

And I want to be a better person now.

Pet !

2010-09-15T03:36:00.000-07:00

From young, I've been dreaming to own a pet.

So I bought fishes and pigeons but all of 'em were either dead or flee..

I really pity 'em and I shouldn't have bought 'em if I know I wasn't good enough..

And I decided not to have one anymore..

Because I know they will have the same faith as others..

But I just can't stand not to have one..

That dreams can't go anywhere but to stay in my mind..

And after watching a lot of movies, I've been interested in the most scariest pet in the world..

"DOG"

I really have bad experiences with this animal...

Whenever I see one, I really aware of it..

But who cares now, A dream is a dream..

And It's still an achievable dream for me..

The only thing that maybe stops me to have one is the environment..

Back in my place, there are many stray dogs rather than a tamed one..

And none seem to love their dog unlike a lot of people here in Malaysia..

And I really want to own and love one!

Just like everybody said,"A dog is man's best friend"

Yet It's just an unachieved dream..

I don't know whether I will fulfill this dream or not,

But I already have a list of dogs to consider.

But the most wanted one is the one below !

German Shepherd !

Isn't It Cool and Lovely?

Fat

2010-09-14T04:11:00.000-07:00

There is a really scary word when it comes to eating...

"Fat"

Just by hearing it, most of people will feel this is their no.1 enemy..

It is the hardest thing to control..

Swimming, Football, Fitness seem so useless..

I just can't turn my fat into muscles !

If only I can burn my fat with fire..

I will buy a galon of petrol and burn my fat off..

Yet it's just an imagination..

I really have been giving up on this thing..

No matter how hard I try, it still points 70+ kg..

I wish I can control my meal but It against my hobby..

Oh My,, Why are you being such a pain ?

Do someone need me to donor my fat?

I will sincerely give you half of my weight now..

That way I will get thinner and you will get some fat..

Fair enough eh??

Wasted Holiday

2010-09-13T06:34:00.000-07:00

Right after friday, My holiday seemed so wasted..

I have nothing productive to do..

Saturday and Sunday weren't a nice day for me..

What i did was sleep,eat,watch movie,sleep..

I really feel that the rest of my holiday will turn out to be so boring..

And the only reason of this is because I don't have a chance to go back home..

If only I managed to get back, I bet I will get a few kilos..

Cuz the food there are irresistible..

Just by imagining it make me miss home so much..

And the best out of it is the family I can gather with..

But it's all just a hope..

No matter how wasted my holiday is, I should be thankful to get a week school off..

Hope everyone enjoys theirs !

Selfish !

2010-09-12T01:55:00.001-07:00

I really hate those people who always say that money isn't no.1 in the world..

Because those who said it are actually selfish people..

They said that with friendship, they could be happy already..

But there's no proof to that..

In fact, We always fight for the best value we can have..

Those people only use a word "Friend" to cor up their good name..

But deep inside their heart, they don't know what a friend should do..

What they care about are none but themselves..

They never treat me well, Yet talked bad behind me..

And they don't even want to sacrifice a cent for their friends..

Who actually sacrifices more for them...

And the best word to describe them is "Selfish"

What's the point of having a friend who always blame others who tried their best..

We all made a big mistake yet I'm the one to be blamed..

Then how about our friendship for so long?

Forget about that.

What truly your friend is our money, not us...

And you don't need friend to spent time with, but money money and yes it's money..

You guys should learn how to treat a friend..

Before calling yourself friend..

Because You guys are the one to forget..

And those don't know me better are the one to be treasured..

Because You guys don't value our feeling, but only value our money..

Do you think I'm a walking money?

Then You're so wrong about that..

You guys are richer yet never appreciate those who want to share the pain..

Forget about what I said in the past..

Some of the memories are just meant to be forgotten..

And you guys are those memories..

Holiday = Movie !

2010-09-10T09:21:00.000-07:00

Today wasn't actually quite a fun day for me..

I spent most of my time in pyramid waiting for my movie that I bought..

But I was in a movie marathon with Leo..

We watched Resident Evil : Afterlife and Piranha..

And What really made my day was Resident Evil...

It's because I'm a fan of that movies..

So Although It's not good, I will also see it that it's good.

So I can't really tell it..

Anyway, the second movie wasn't a nice one...

Full of killings and blood..

And one thing that really pissed me off..

the movie was cut while it's actually quite short already..

So It's like 80 minutes movie only..

Well, I don't want to comment more about the movies..

And that's basically how my first day of hols ended !

2010-09-08T02:12:00.000-07:00

周杰伦- 爱我别走
Jay Chou- Love me, don�t go

我到了这个时候还是一样
Wo dao le zhe ke shi jian hai shi yi yang
Having arrived at this moment, I�m still the same

夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
Ye li de ji mo rong yi jiao ren bei shang
Loneliness of the night easily makes people hurt

我不敢想的太多
Wo bu gan xiang de tai duo
I don�t dare to think too much

因为我一个人
Ying wei wo yi ke ren
Because I�m all by myself

迎面而光的月光拉长身影
Ying mian er guang de ye guang la chang shen ying
Facing moonlight, it draws out the silhouette

走在漫无目的的街
Zou zai man wu mu di de jie
Walking by the boundless and endless street

我没有你的消息
Wo mei you ni de xiao xi
I don�t hear your news

因为我在想你
Yin wei wo zai xiang ni
Because I�m thinking of you

Chorus:

爱我别走
Ai wo bie zou
Love me, don�t go

如果你说你不爱我
Ru guo ni shuo ni bu ai wo
If you say you don�t love me

不要听见你真的说出口
Bu yao ding jian ni zhen de shuo chu kou
I don�t want to hear you really said it

再给我一点温柔
Cai gei wo yi dian wen rou
Give me a bit warmth again

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就在今晚抹去对方的肯定
Jiu zai jin wan mo qu dui fang de ken ding
And at this night, erasing the other is for sure

夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
Ye li de ji mo rong yi jiao ren bei shang
Loneliness of the night easily makes people hurt

我没有你的消息
Wo mei you ni de xiao xi
I don�t hear your news

因为我一个人
Ying wei wo yi ke ren
Because I�m all by myself

迎面而光的月光拉长身影
Ying mian er guang de ye guang la chang shen ying
Facing moonlight, it draws out the silhouette

一个人走在漫无目的的街
Yi ke ren zou zai man wu mu di de jie
A person walking by the boundless and endless street

我没有你的消息
Wo mei you ni de xiao xi
I don�t hear your news

因为我在想你
Yin wei wo zai xiang ni
Because I�m thinking of you

爱我别走
Ai wo bie zou
Love me, don�t go

如果你说你不爱我
Ru guo ni shuo ni bu ai wo
If you say you don�t love me

不要听见你真的说出口
Bu yao ding jian ni zhen de shuo chu kou
I don�t want to hear you really said it

再给我一点温柔
Cai gei wo yi dian wen rou
Give me a bit warmth again

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I'm so in love with this song...

Singing it outloud everytime i turned on this song !

Love me, Don't Go

爱我别走

I think everybody should have this song on their itunes !

Jay Chou is really talented one.

I wish I can make a song just like him !

Local Product !

2010-09-06T02:58:00.000-07:00

For so many times, I've been complaining about how bad my country is...

Every single thing of it...

But recently I've been watching many local movies that my brother download...

And it proves that I'm wrong..

Indonesian Actresses are not bad at all..

Although The storyline can't be compared to Hollywood's,

But I admit, they have quite a lot of Nice Actresses..

And this thing makes me realize..

If I can't love my country, My country will never be developed..

Without support, Everything will never be achieved..

And yet, I'm always complain about everything..

I'm Sorry Indonesia..

You're My Place After All...

Well For Your Information...

Indonesia is quite a nice place to taste so many tasty foods..

And Indomie is No.1 Instant Noodle In the world..

No one can't beat the taste of it...

I hope Indonesia will be a developed country one day..

Not a country with full of terrorist and corrupter...

September Wish !

2010-08-30T02:58:00.000-07:00

Another two days will be the start of September..

Right after Malaysians' Independence Day...

And I gonna start it off with Math Test Unit 2 exactly at the first period of the day..

And it shows me how i gonna struggle with my studies on this month..

Moreover,, I will have Argumentative Essay Plus Oral Presentation due in this month..

Not forget to mention that I have Computer Science Unit 3 Practical Test and Written Test also...

But the good side of the month is Everyone will have a raya break for around 9-10 days including me..

Well, Basically My September Wish is to do well on my studies !

Emotion !

2010-08-29T21:15:00.000-07:00

Now that I've realized everything..

Looking for a girl really makes me look like a dog..

I felt like I have to bark everytime i like a girl..

and it such a pain in the heart..

Because no matter how loud you bark,, They will never notice you..

Just like any other dog..

but when there's a cute or better dog,

They go and keep it..

So what if you have a cute dog?

So what if you have a better one?

It doesn't guarantee you will be safe..

You also need to feed him just like any other dog..

Do you think even if we act like a dog to find your attention,

You can treat us whatever you like..

Even if we're really a dog...

You can't just bury us when we die and forget it the day after..

Because we are loyal like dogs..

But you guys that we are always caring for are as cruel as a fox..

That's why we dog always realize in the end that you guys are actually foxes who pretend to be dogs..

And that doesn't mean we are stupid..

But we are just try to be loyal..

You fox will never know how loyal we are because you guys are not dogs..

So try to learn and appreciate us !

And here, I don't refer to all girls as foxes..

But those who never appreciate men because they never want to TRY to learn about us..

While we always be want to TRY to be understanding about them!

Ending Saga

2010-08-27T07:23:00.000-07:00

Do you remember the first ever time we ever met?

It was so unpredicted and shocking..

And that is when our saga begins.

At first, it didn't look good...

It seemed that we weren't even care about each other...

but it was just the beginning of our saga...

We used to have a bad relationship because of stupid things..

And it didn't last that long till we have a chance to get to know each other..

But that was not good enough to make us attracted to each other..

So chance by chance we have taken..

And it went really well to reach the climax of our saga..

Till we finally found a dead-end of our journey..

And it seemed to be a wall which stop us to step a higher up..

And that wall pulled you away from me..

Day by day,, you were getting pulled further and further..

Leaving me worried and frustrated...

No matter how fast I run,,

I still couldn't catch you up..

and it looked like I'm going nowhere..

till one day i met that wall..

But what I can only see is a text saying that..

"This is The End Of Our Saga"

And that was when I decided not to care anymore..

That was when I decided not to worry anymore..

Because you left me nothing but that hurtful message..

And that was when I decided not to continue our saga..

_________________________________________

If only we didn't meet a dead-end in our journey..

If only you didn't get pulled by a wall..

But I'm so happy to be inside your history book..

So in the future,

I can flip to the page where i can found all the memories of our saga..

And drop my tears to read outloud the last TWO WORDS of the book..

"The End"

Difficult !

2010-08-20T10:10:00.000-07:00

Now Back To My School..

Next Week I have Accounting Test 1 and English Writing Assessment..

They really stress me out now..

Just because the test is on Monday..

I have to do all of my homework as early as possible..

And this is really unusual for a guy like me..

And The M.Word Project is yet to be made...

I'm starting to give up just like I did in SIS last semester..

I still remember how struggling I was When doin' my TGJ..

Now I have to do all hard subjects in MUFY with daily homework..

Oh God, Can You Ensure Me To Pass This Course If I Worked Hard?

Now It's difficult to hold on my promise for being hardworking..

Cuz I'm still the same guy who always worry about the result..

Nothing seems to be understandable and it's all brand new..

I really need to work my brain out to be safe..

But I will keep wishing for the best out of me !

I will try ! But It's difficult to promise !

It's Damn Difficult !

Let Me Tell You A Story !

2010-08-16T08:17:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time, there's one ugly beast who lived in a hut far from the castle. In the castle, there's a beautiful princess and the beast adores the princess so much. He always looked at the princess through his telescope while the princess is standing in balcony. He had no courage to meet a princess with his ugly look and to go there the beast has to go through a dangerous forest with many wild animals.
One day, He took up all his courage to eventually met the princess because he want to see a princess with a closer view. He covered all his body up so that he won't get caught by the people and started his adventure through the jungle. He fought off one by one animal he met there till he found a small cave near the river. He took a rest inside the cave and met a witch. The witch told him that she can change him into a handsome prince. But the beast rejected her offer and told her that he doesn't want the princess to see him. So he continued his journey and reached till the gate of the castle.
Coincidentally, the princess was looking for fresh air. So the beast was hiding and stalking her until the time the princess arrived at the river. The beast was slipped off and the princess noticed his existence and pretended that nothing happened.The beast doesn't realize that the princess knew his existence so he kept stalking her. And the princess purposely go to jungle to test whether the beast will follow her or not. In a short time, the princess found a hut where the beast was living. So she took a rest there and the beast confused on what to do. So he suddenly jumped off the bushes and showed his appearance to the princess and told the princess that that is his place. Shockingly, the princess didn't scared of his look and smile instead. She told the beast that this was a payback for stalking her. The beast were confusingly happy that the princess gave him a good respond.
After that moment, the princess and the beast became a good friend. The beast always told her how he always wanted to meet her and felt lucky to be a friend of hers. The princess did tell him that if only he was good enough for her and love her when the time is come, she would love him very much and wanted to marry him. The next day, the beast remembered princess' word and went to the cave where the witch lived. He asked her to turn her into a handsome prince. However, the witch told him that he can't turn back into a beast anymore and that makes the beast even more happier to hear that.
After turning to human, he straight away when to the castle but he couldn't find the princess as the people said she left the town. Feeling betrayed, the prince went back to his hut. Along the way the prince met a really ugly beast. He insulted and tortured the beast and told the beast not to get in his way. The day after, the prince went to the river to take a bath and met the same beast he met yesterday. His temper is rising and took his knife out of his pocket and stabbed the beast till the beast died. But miraculously the beast slowly turned into the princess he was looking for. The prince was shocked with what he had done and found a letter on the princess' dress.

"I haven't seen him for ages because of my look. The people have expelled me from the castle even my parents did too. So I decided to come to his hut and tell about my condition. But I can't find him anywhere. I went to the place he first stalked me and I still can't find him. I really hope he still remembered my word and accept me they way I am now. On my way to the place where we usually hung out, I found a really handsome prince. He treated me really bad and I wish I will never see him again. He's totally different from the beast. Even with his ugly look, he could make funny face and made me laugh. I wish that handsome prince knew how to treat a beast like the way I treated the beast but he really disappointed me instead. However his face look so familiar to me like i ever met that guy before. Ah, I wish I can find the beast tomorrow so I can tell him everything. I believed that he will treat me well and we can live happily ever after together"

After reading her letter, the prince couldn't stop crying and felt so guilty with what he has done. He looked at the princess' death body and screamed regretfully. He said to the dead princess,
"The biggest regret of my life is that I never realized the way you treated me when I was a beast and I never realized that this is not a fairy tale. I thought we can live happily ever after as a human, but i was wrong. One thing I know from a reality that even if I kiss you now, I can't bring back your life. So before I kill myself, I will tell you one thing, You're my most beautiful beast I ever loved and killed"
And finally the prince killed himself with the knife he used to kill the princess. Soon, the prince turned back into an ugly beast.

Positive Belief !

2010-08-10T02:16:00.000-07:00

Many People ask me, What is your dream in this world?

And I keep telling lies to them..

It's all just because i don't want to feel embarrassed for not having a dream..

So people will not look down on me !

And i also want people to respect me..

But as time passes, I'm starting to realize that i was dishonest and living in shame..

I realized that i was respected with all those bullshit i told them.

The more i remembered about all those lies, the more embarrass I will feel.

Few days back, I was reading a mini biography of Walt Disney ..

And I look how shameful he was when he was trying to live his dream..

I kept reading and reading till I look how he managed to live his dream..

With all his talents, He kept believe in himself..

Although he had no money and live out of pity of his relatives..

In just several days, He had become a successful person..

Maybe it's only a cartoon for children,

But all of our memories were colored with all of his artworks !

Snow white, Cinderella, Rapunzel, Sleeping Beauty..

Which one of you do not know all of these cartoons?

From his biography, I learned something really really important..

Not to have a dream..

But to believe that you can do whatever you want to do,

Even if it can't be called a dream !

And Don't feel shame on yourself..

Because if you're successful later on,

people will turn back on you..

And that will be your time to tell them..

Don't feel shame on yourself !

So I just believe in whatever I'm doing now And feel positive of it..

Pressure !

2010-08-09T00:55:00.001-07:00

I know that this day would come..

The day which you get all the pressures that will stress you along the semester..

And i already felt these pressures on the fifth week of college..

I never expected that the day will come this fast...

Well, With all my skills and experience from SIS..

I think i will be able to handle all of the pressure given to me..

And I tell you what.. I won't be stressed out for a second time..

Once is enough and Homework here I go !

By the way,, I want to ask you something..

Do you know which fruit is the most fearful fruit?

Well, If You can't guess, then you can look at the picture below..

Don't think dirty okay, It's just a plain joke !

BANANA! LOL

I Hate You !

2010-08-06T10:10:00.000-07:00

I hate you, you know !

I really really hate you !

You don't really know when to stop, do you ?

I hate when I can't forget you !

I hate when I still think of you !

Why can't you just disappear from my sight ?

So i won't be able to see you physically and mentally !

Just when i don't have a chance to meet you..

My mind is thinking about you!

Just when i try to forget you..

My eyes keep catching your existence!

And You know what?

I really hate you when you make me love you so much..

When I mean I hate you

It means

I just even love you more !

I don't care anymore !

I'm sure about this feeling and I want to keep it for awhile..

So When I'm Spacing out, You will be the one and only !

Thanks for giving me such feeling and experience..

It help me understand that love is not about owning someone or havin' relationship..

But just got to see each other feel happy and comfortable...

Even when I can't see you, Even when I can't feel you..

I know that you're happy out there with the choice of yours..

Maybe i'm just not good enough for you..

And now, I'm willing to let you go and find a better life..

Where I'm not on your mind anymore,

I'm ready for all of these..

And I hate you once more..

To make me saying all this thing..

If You're smart, You will get the meaning of what i have said all above !

Year 1

2010-08-05T08:11:00.000-07:00

How if this world has turned back in time,,

when everybody is still a primitive?

How if this world has turned back in time,,

when fire is made with stone and tiger is still hunted?

How if this world has turned back in time,,

when there's no written language to learn?

How will I express all of these feelings towards you?

I can't express nor explain anything to you !

Yet I want to tell you how much I love you..

Have you ever been thinking a way for me,

So that I can say it outloud to you that i love you?

What you know about me are that i only kill animal and make fire..

So that I can feel comfortable with myself..

But that's not what i truly want to do...

I killed them because I want you to enjoy good meal...

I make fire because I want you to feel warm..

But still I can't tell what's on my mind..

No matter what, My brain is just not good enough to think..

I can't think of a song to sing..

I can't think of a letter to write..

Oh I just can't express those feelings !

If only, i have language to learn..

If only, i have a match to light..

I will bring you to wonderful candle light dinner..

With just you and me,

where we don't need to think of hunting animals..

where we don't need to think of making fire..

and have a nice conversation that we can enjoy with..

But I know it will never happen..

All just because we live in year 1

But what i treasure the most is,,

I learn how to love someone..

Just as early as year 1..

Hopes, Roses, Loves !

2010-07-29T02:37:00.000-07:00

Rose has always been a symbol of love..

And I know i can't deny how sweet rose is !

And I did use it when i'm confessing my love..

It's to show my love to her..

Yes I know you can make rose, but would you accept a fake thing?

Would you accept my fake love?

I know, I really know what word will come out of your mouth !

But also know that you never meant what you've said to me..

Deep down in your heart, i know i'm still there...

I know I can reach your heart again..

I know you can still love me..

But do you know without seed, there's no rose ?

But do you know without water, there's no rose ?

But do you know without sunlight, there's no rose?

And do you know how hard I tried to grow that seed into a sweet little red rose ?

And do you know how hurt I was when i picked that sweet little red rose ?

And do you know how serious I was when i gave you that sweet little red rose?

You may think it's just a little red rose,

You may throw that little red rose,

You may even give it to someone else you want,

But do you know that I grow it just for you?

And you should have known how meaningful that rose to me.

I watered it everyday,

I gave it sunlight everyday,

Just to hope it can grow well and give me new hope..

One little hope that i never have before..

Because I know that I will never grow that rose unless I meet you..

Now that i have one little hope in my heart,,

Now that i have one little rose in my hand,,

I'm not more than a failure just to find out that those things are gone !

Disappear as fast as a blink of eyes when i found out there's no place in your heart..

When you tell me you will be ready soon !

And just when i know i can get you this time..

I don't have anymore hope left in my heart..

I don't have anymore rose left in my hand..

To say..

" I love you"

Because i know although you give me a thousand hopes..

Because I know although you give me a thousand roses..

It will never be the same with the one I grew up...

It will never be the sweet little rose I gave you..

And I realize when you gave me that thousand hopes and roses..

I know that,

It will never be you, My Love !

Test of Love !

2010-07-28T08:52:00.000-07:00

In this post, I want to tell you guys two things..

First,, i want to change the format of my post..

Because the previous post look so formal and so not me...

And Second, I have a first ever test in MUFY today basically..

Now those two things aren't important right?

But i just want to take a look at the second one !

So a test is usually made to evaluate on your knowledge, right??

Now, Let me ask you a question !

How about if someone gives you a Test Of Love..

Well I know it sounds a bit weird..

But i just want to know what does test of love evaluate on?

And if you're the teacher, What mark would you consider to be a passing mark?

Well, the word "Love" itself isn't something you can define easily..

Because it's like a play of a feeling...

When you're interested in it, you will take it !

When you're bored at it, you will leave it !

Is that so? But did you ever realize how doees the opposing side define the word "Love" ?

So i think the keypoint of this is you have to have understanding !

And what most of the reasons for a couple to break up is that..

They don't give time to understand each other really well..

I know there will always be a conflict between each other..

But how will you be patient if your partner never do so?

And that's one thing really irritates me right now..

And I want you to know one thing !

If I fail at my Test Of Love !

It's not because of my lack of knowledge!

It's not because i can't reach the passing mark !

But It's because i never get a chance to do it !

Let's just make it simpler.

I'm messed up in relationship because I never get a chance to even taste it !

Well i know that i had a relationship before..

And I really regretted it due to the fact that i never be serious with it !

And I was young at that time !

Now that I'm ready for it !

Not even a single chance, I will get one !

So actually what's the point of giving me a test?

If i can't prove whether love is bullshit or not?

Okay Maybe I'm not an expert for this kind of thing..

But i just want to give you a single advice...

Feeling is not something you can play with..

And Once it broke, There's no way it can be fixed easily..

And the basic consequences is the relationship is broken, right?

So If you do love someone, Please don't play with his/her feelings !

There's no such thing as test of love !

It's not more than a bullshit !

The only reason why we are here ..

Is that our parents never played their feelings with each other !

And take them as a your role model for caring someone !

And make a commitment to each other not by putting a ring on but just to understand each other..

And I know it's my consequences that now i don't have any relationship !

Because i never understand my partner feeling and i barely can fixed my relationship with her..

Even just to be a friend...

So from now on, Please be careful with it !

And I'm Sorry To Talk Rubbish !

I Just Can't Stand With It ! I don't want to see any other break ups !

It hurts to see one ! or to even feel one !

Then why would you want to coupled so many times?

Does it hurt you everytime you break up?

So why not have a slow but steady relationship ?

Getting Harder !

2010-07-26T09:05:00.002-07:00

Yo Bloggers ! Now i want to tell about my third week of MUFY. So it's been a while since the start of the college and week by week things are getting harder. Let me give you some examples --> Just to do 2 exercises of math, i need approximately 2.5 hours while the teacher usually give 4 exercises. You can imagine how much time i will spend just to do my math HOMEWORK plus other homework that waste so much time as well! and i couldn't do my accounting exercise today, it's so fucking confusing that twist my brain. And What worst of the worst is this is only the third week of college ! You can imagine that right ? By the way, I got Intensive English Test Today and Thursday i will be havin' Computer Science First Test ! Holy Shit ! I will get brain damage when it comes to the last week of school ! I think I will never ever relax like i did in SIS seriously ! X_X

17th Dinner !

2010-07-23T11:46:00.001-07:00

So yesterday was when i treated all my friends to have dinner at flaming steamboat.. At first, i came with only 4 people including me and the rest came a bit later. I was waiting like one hour till the girls suddenly surprise me with the cakes ! Damn, it felt so nice to have one and i saved it in my refrigerator NOW! So if you guys want to eat, just come to my unit and it will be served in no time!Unfortunately Jon, Wendy, and Calwin were going to the wrong place and they rushed back to the other steamboat which we were at. Luckily they can make it to the steamboat and at least felt quite full eatin' buffet. My plan for making my friends satisfied didn't get mess up and i'm so happy about that ! Because i scared they won't be satisfied with my treat. And Another surprise came when another cake arrived from the girls as well. Damn they are the best man ! :D. I never get two cakes in my life before. Maybe it's just a better birthday that i had than last year. And i finally got my present from all of them which is a Real Madrid T-Shirt.. I'm so happy to add my real madrid collections ! Thank you friend thank you ! Special Thanks for Sherly, Jon, Frans, Calwin, My Bro, Weini, The Twins, Yuli, Theo, Aziza, Wendy and Leo for a great night i have ! Without all of you, it's just a normal night i guess ! You guys make my day ! :D And i have no word to thank you guys ! And by the way I'm 17 years old now ! And here i am with my lovely blog !

Dreams !

2010-07-19T08:29:00.001-07:00

I believe all of us here have a dreams right? but the problem is can we achieve those dreams we had? It seems hard to achieve but with a lot of hard work, you will achieve what you want. Is that what pro people said? But my dream isn't to be a pilot or astronaut, My dream isn't to be a writer or artist. But my dream is to be a movie collectors.. I have to admit it's my hobby to watch movies and i like to collect all the movies so that in the future i can review back what i did when i was young. I want to collect all the movies so that in the future i can show them to my children. I want to collect all the movies so that in the future my dream is achieved ! I don't care if it's chinese, korean, japanese, or western. I just wanna collect all of them,, it teaches us many things too. Don't get it the wrong way okay, movies actually do help us alot by giving some messages. And can you stand not watching your idol playing a movie? Ah,, i just want to have all good movies out there ! and start to burn them all and make my own mini library full of movies ! :D

The Feeling of Reunion

2010-07-17T10:24:00.000-07:00

Have you ever met your friends after so long been separated? Have you ever met your friends that you really want to see? And i did meet all my friends that has been gone for so looooong.. And the feeling is really really nice. Although it's only a year or two years, it's like forever for me.. So to be back together, although you didn't talk much to them,, it's just sound so nice ! You got to see their faces that has gone for so long. Oh, i just can't describe it very well. But i guess you guys know the feeling of reunion. The feeling of meeting old friends. And i hope we all can meet each other like this time in the future. I don't know when but i believe we will meet someday again! now see you guys, go catch your dream !

Miracle !

2010-07-16T07:30:00.000-07:00

I know everybody here don't believe in miracle because it's a bullshit thing if miracle do exist. And i don't believe in it myself. But let me tell you one thing related to that. So everyday i always set on alarm on 7 am to wake me up but i never really wake up at 7 because i always continue sleeping after turn it off. However,, i always wake up at 7.30 automatically and i don't know why so i keep doing that for the rest of the day. This friday i was doing the same thing, i set my alarm at 7 am and i did sleep after turn it off. But this time, i don't know why i didn't wake up at 7.30. So from all of sudden, my phone miraculously fell off the bed and woke me up. And when i saw the time, It was 8.25 and my class starts at 8.30. So i rushed to the school and i managed to come on time. I am very lucky. And this incident started giving me some kind of thought that miracle do exist. Because i can't believe that my phone will fall off to wake up. It's like some kind of emergency alarm. And usually my phone never fell off before although i put it on my bed. So i'm still wonderin' whether there's miracle in this world or not !

MUFY !

2010-07-15T08:06:00.000-07:00

Hello guys, I just wanna talk about MUFY stuffs here.. But before that, i wanna inform you guys that i change the format of my post to a paragraph one since i kinda like to write in paragraph form.. Well, MUFY isn't the same with CIMP or AUSMAT.. It's a whole new story to begin with once you enrolled this course. At first i thought it just gonna be slightly harder than CIMP but now the subjects are freaking me out. Especially when you hear the word "ENGLISH", it will haunt you during your leisure time, it will gives you nightmare basically. Since I never understand it at all. Now i only hope that i can cope with it so i will pass this course and forget about it.. It have been my personal challenge to enroll this course seriously. Wish me luck here !

Twilight Saga

2010-07-14T08:48:00.000-07:00

So what's up everyone,,

Today post i wanna talk about the twilight saga,,

So i first watched thase on saturday,,

And i didn't really expect this to happen but i turned out to like the movies..

It might sounds so bad since i'm a boy and i like the twilight saga..

But the reason i like the movies themselves isn't about the TEAM EDWARD or TEAM JACOB,,

But about Kristen Stewart who played as Bella Swan there..

I think she's a good-looking actress and very professional..

And i like her role there.. Now i can say i'm a fan of her already..

Well,, Don't get it the wrong way okay..

I just like her so much now..

That's why i decided to follow the twilight saga which is annually..

But i have no friend to accompany me watching eclipse..

So i decide to just download the movie and watch it myself..

But i have to admit that the story itself is interesting..

And they also have so many cover for the movie that make me so confuse of the original one..

2010-07-13T07:47:00.000-07:00

Hi Everyone..

I'm back in business again..

This time as a college boy i guess..

Anyway, MUFY is just okay...

Nothing much goin' on so far..

I want an interesting life like last semester..

But it seems that this semester, it'll be alot boring..

Well since i'm just got back to my blog..

I don't need to tell much at my first post !

LOL..

By the way, I formatted my laptop so it's like a brand new one now..

And i'm lack of movies !

Any suggestion of good movies?

2010-06-08T11:04:00.000-07:00

Since I'm going back today...

I decide to post another thing before leaving my blog for holiday..

But i don't really know what to say now..

I'm out of word...

How about I'm telling you about my life in SIS?

But this time i'll write in in paragraph okay ....

Before going to Sunway International School, I was thinking that I will never ever get any good friend to hang around with, chat with, and to live with at the first time. But it turned out that my first semester was the time when i got more and more friends especially in SIS Hostel. But i have to admit i was in friend cycle during that semester meaning that i always change friend. So basically the first semester wasn't really that satisfying as i have to adapt with my brand new environment and country..

After semester break, I came back here to continue my second one. This is joyful moment of High School Life. I started to get many international friend meaning from different country other than Indonesia. And I have to admit that this was the semester when i started to like someone. I really, really fight to get close with the girl and i somehow managed to get close with that girl till the end of my semester. And this was the time when i made the 13 circles that consist of 12 of my friends that i thought were good friends and myself. So I could say that the second semester was almost reaching the peak of my high school life.

Due to the length of the semester break that i got in the second semester, I was starting to lose some friends because i couldn't keep contact with them. Apparently, the most painful thing is when i realized that i ain't close to the girl that i liked in the previous semester anymore. This really sucks to tell you guys but i was starting to lose hope and feeling to the girl because i was giving up all my efforts that i put during the second semester. And I tell you guys, that was the first time i really serious to chase a girl to be honest. But because it's just too painful to give this girl up, I was thinking of being single until i reach university later on and i promise to myself. But this semester, I was closer to my Indonesian friends and i start to notice another quiet attractive girl.

So i built up my feelings again with this other girl during the third and apparently i just can't reached the level that i got during my second semester with the previous girl. Even when i tried so hard during the third semester break, i just can't reach that high. So when the fourth semester started, My life was extremely changed. I got so many friends that i never ever expected and they were actually the best among all because they're playful and have a strong feeling of friendship among each other. We always play during our study period. And it's just getting stronger and stronger each day till we all became a real gang. My Indonesian friends were teasing me over and over with the girl that i have built up with and that was the time when i started to like her. Because the pain or in other word, failure that i have in my previous semester, I promised to myself that i have to be serious with this one. Fortunately, I was getting closer and closer to this girl but there's always one thing that distracted my feelings towards her. She's so playful with her best friend until then it hard for me to really confess my feelings to her. But one day i just rounded up my intention to get her, and out of sudden i confessed my feelings to her. But unfortunately she wasn't ready for a relationship. But I have a very wonderful memories with her. Especially the three weekend that i spent with her. And the last day of school seemed to be the best among all day in school because that was the time where our gang went crazy drawing thing on each other uniform. So that marked the end of the last semester of me.

I was thinking that all the failures that i got during high school was because i was never ever determined to have one. Because i have promised that i will never couple with a girl until i reach university when i was in junior school. And that curse seems to be real and scared me off. Well, but it seems that my semesters were so colorful. I met different friends with different country and background. Some were nice, Some were kind, Some were arrogant, Some were funny, Some were annoying. Activities during school seemed to be good as well. And the prom party was one thing that i'll never ever forget. It's the symbol of our joyful moment when all of us weren't thinking of homework/assignment/tests/quiz/exams at all. The teachers were so creative and amazing. Actually when i was a kid, I never thought that i will ever meet a western people. But my dream really come true, in fact they were my teachers. And Sunway International School always be remembered as Underground International School. There's not even any sunlight comin' in to the school. How you supposed to say that SUNWAY. So those who were in 13 circles who read this post. Don't Worry, I'll remember you always. And Those who were gang of last study period this semester. Don't Worry, I'll remember you always. And Those who were the readers of my blog. Don't Worry, I'll respect all of you. And One thing i have to tell you that there were two people who inspired me to make this blog.. I think they know who they are.

So does it seems to be a long story to you guys?

Well that's the truth of my high school life..

Although i didn't tell all of them..

There are some keypoints of my life..

And one thing i have to remind all of you..

and i think you guys know all of this already...

It's just a basic quote that i want to restate...

that

" Failures are the beginning of Success"

Just think of me as a failure boy now..

But you'll see me as a successful man later on..

HAHAHA

Just Kidding...

Hope You Enjoy The Story...

Note :

Those two girls that i liked

changed my shy personality into a real man

credit to the people I cherised the most

Kevin Linus

Jonathan Au Tugiono

Ervandi

Calwin Hon

Wendy Bong

Frans Tanuwijaya

Cheong Kaa Yeong

Jessyln

Fivyola

Fivyolen

Aziza

Weini

Kharenee

Chermayne

Zariff

Jong Gil

Salar

Jun

Shaun

Kim

Taro

Jun Ming

Sherly

Yuli
Theofani

others( If I forgot to tell the name)

How do you feel?

2010-06-07T12:51:00.000-07:00

How do you feel if you always get 49 marks on your test?

How do you feel if you miss a winning goal for your team?

How do you feel if you mess up the group work that affect your friend's mark?

These are what i truly feel right now..

I felt as if i am so close to get my golden chance..

Yet if i take that chance, i'll mess up my friend's friendship...

I know that life is unfair to all of us..

But why from all my life, my love life is the most unfair thing that i get...

It's not easy to love someone ...

And yet

It's not easy to forget someone...

And just when u reach that level of loving someone..

You're forced to step a higher level which is forgetting someone...

Would you say this unfair or unlucky?

Everybody always say you need to sacrifice yourself to get what you want..

Then may i ask those everybody one question..

How if there's nothing more to sacrifice?

You want me to sacrifice my blood..

You want me to sacrifice my feeling..

You want me to sacrifice my heart..

You want me to sacrifice myself..

But how if i have done them all and you still want more..

What are you expecting me to sacrifice?

Would you even mind to sacrifice a little bit for me?

Because now i seem hopeless and have nowhere to go..

I may wish..

I may hope..

I may pray..

But without your help,, it's nothing more than a dream..

A dream that will never come true...

But i allow you to call me idiot...

Because i will never mind to dream of you..

Although i knew that it won't come true..

But i can't keep dreaming even if i want to..

Because one day, I will never open my eyes anymore..

I will never ever see you in reality anymore..

And I only can see you in my dream..

It's not worth my love if i can make you safe in my nightmare..

It's not worth my love if i can make you smile in my sweet dream..

What's worth is ..

To protect you in reality..

To always lead you in reality..

To always love you in reality..

Because i know that in my dream you can go in anytime..

And i don't want that to happen..

So i want you for real..

I love you and i can't resist to have you..

But one thing that always stuck on my mind..

How do i feel if i can't have you completely?

It will just make me irresponsible..

because i can't give you full protection...

So tell me ...

Tell me one thing..

How do you feel about me?

Holiday

2010-06-05T09:53:00.000-07:00

School Over !!

Grade 11 Over !!

SIS Over !!

That means we will have a long holiday...

And yes i have to spend it at my hometown once more..

Well I still got 3 more days here...

I hope My friends and I can go hang out somewhere far in Malay together..

But that doesn't seem to happen..

Oh well,, Nevermind..

We're heading to Redang right after the hols finished..

Anyway let me tell ya my plan for holiday..

I have a so called "Reunion" for my junior school..

But this time is big until they hire Master of Ceremony...

I really, really curious what will happen later on in the party..

But the rest of holiday, I'll basically watch watch and watch..

And wait for a new school..

New apartment..

New semester...

and

I hate to say this

New friends..